special you'

benjamin

15岁,

跟我相处了15个月

常让我哭笑不得

我喜欢他的眼睛，因为他的眼睛最美了
他很坏，常把我咬得整身伤，但我还是很喜欢他 :)

他，是个非常可爱的小孩
跟他在一起，我很有安全感
他总是能够在我身边，听我说话
是个非常可靠的男孩

'亲爱的'成为我对他最亲密的昵称

但他从来不这么叫我

我是最近才发现，我真的很爱他

ben :)

4/11

Today , i woke up at 6.15am , as usual .
But when I notice it was having a heavy rain , the first thing I do is looking for my timetable.Well , today's class was boring. 2 period of Manderin , 2period of English , 1period of relief class.
I told mum don't go to school today.
Not like some of my friends' mum , my mum doesn't force my to go.
ha
So , I returned to bed.

I've been studying for 3hours. Now surfing internet for some university information.
I'm lucky to have so many people to help me.
My drumming coach and a well-known performing art teacher 孙春美老师 , My form teacher also
Everything is going well now.

And my final result also.
Since when I got in top10 in my class.
I think is junior 1 that time. So surprise that I'm in the ninth place with the average result 68.22.
I don't think I'm good. It was just luck.

Dinner alone again.
Thx god.
gotta continue study after meal.

8 days

Finally , left 8days in school. I've decided very clearly, I'm not gonna continue my senior study . I'm not gonna take UEC . Good bye.
I fled , actually.
It's amazing , really , how fast a senior 2 study is over . With the anticipation of living school , all the tension and excitement during my high school life, I kind of expect it to last for another few months instead of 8days. I won't plan to end it with a sad fair-well. Since everything going normal , and , normal. Don't make it through with a sad way. But I still kinda hope there could have a commemorative gathering before I step out the last step of Tsun Jin High School. Cruelly , I won't change my decision though you guys egged me to stay-back . Not mean I doesn't care at all , I really love you guys .

Good bye. Just love me for another 8days.

mufffffiin!!

Today ,  I made muffin myself. Without anyone's help. =]

Erm.. this is some procedure pic-

sift the flour and cocoa powder

cook the chocolate and butter, well , it looks not nice.

bake it!!!! at 180 'c

thats its! xD

erm...the recipe is chocolate walnut muffin.

but what I've made is looks like mocha muffin.

I don't really like it.

ha.

Haven't study yet.

girls.

Woe to the bloody city!
It is all full of lies and predation.
Its prey departeth not!
U sure don't know who am I talking about
ha


should listen to my fren
wenyi , ahmooong , xin and others
stop drinking cold water!
today my life was miserable, can't do anything at all.
Can't even sleep also
My stomach was very pain, fuck that bloody period
Poor girls, every month few days like this.

this is it

this is it

I don't know what

sep2011

Today is the last day of  SEP. Lets flashback n see :

02/09/2011
Go eat room eighteen with family
bro brought an amazing coupon on MyDeal
6 dishes: shark fin,  dessert , fried rice , deer meat (mum n i dont eat><) , hongkong milk tea , veg, prawn.
only cost RM 39!!!!  and the normal price is RM103!!!

the same day, bro oso buy me a headphone!!
weird brother, he seldom buy me present
but he said is bcoz he saw this very cheap in the IT fair
sennheiser cx 280 : normal price: RM189 (the price i saw on9)
thn my bro buy ard RM50  @@

03/09/2011


Miriam yeong Ladies and Gentlemen concert in genting

with Zhixin, LF and Quan.

 sooo blur..

Mooncake Festival
This year was special.
Mum buy many mooncake
Thn she said suddenly want to eat @@

Benjamin Pan  (Ban ban)
His birthday oso on 12/09/2011
Same day wif mooncake fest

stupid cat go n play candle..

 Thn....burn his hands n gt candle on it

his new t-shirt!! xD

not much picture on SEP.  got alot at shinno thr.

share next time~

Finish trial exam,  coming up next is test. and final exam =[

Hope everythg going well xD

flash!!

Flash!!!
Times goes sooooooo fast.
Day after tomorrow,  I might start my journey alone.
For trial exam, for exam, and . . exam..
Hope all these stuff can gone fast but successfully.

Yesterday night, I nearly throw all my sejarah notes, text book and those exercise practice.  Damm mad and disappointed of myself.  I thought I study and review for soooo long might have a good result in the exercise.   But!  only correct less than 25/40 ,  some only 15+. lol. . .
Have to put more efford =]

Today go to 'cee chiong gai' with mum brought my favorite -

Durian Puff!!!!

LIKE!

Time's up. go study.

bless me.

maybe lost.

oh gosh.
I'm fucking afraid.
I thought I found a place to go.But I duno how.
Anyone guide me?

writing.

'Writing is a lonely profession, so thank you to all of the people who keep me company along the way.'

-Jonathan Tropper

Well, writing is always a good way to express oneself or communicate with people nicely.
I'm seriously against my revision this holiday, it doesn't seems like me though.
I've found my way to go, so well preparation is what I should do now.
Recently I'm writing my own notes and rereading it. Study was not that hard!
Just to avoid studying in front of the TV or computer, because in order to study properly you have to have a quiet and empty space.Meaning no noise that's distracting =]
A fortnight countdown to trial exam.
Don't give up please！